IneffectiveIneffectiveI can see something's not rightCascading torrents of despairUnveiling how you're not alrightA hidden pain you begin to shareSeeing those words grace my screenThoughts unchained, breaking freeOpening out, a soul picked cleanWords I sorely wish I didn't seeYour realm seems to falling awaySearing anger fills your veinsI can't find the words to sayI don't know how to end the painsSitting as the walls are crumblingI have no plan, unable to help youCurse this hopeless mental fumblingWhy is do I not know what to doMy mind is twisting mangled messSwimming in the oceans of defeatCan't fight off waves of
The Girl Behind the SmileI am the girl behind the smile,But more accurately I am the girl behind the tears,I am the girl behind the pain,And I am the girl you decide to hurt even more,As your words become daggers,I fall, defeated.I am nothing to you,Another victim to your cruel jokes,Everyone laughs, But at what expense?Oh right, MY expense.How about I just lie down and die,After a night of abuse with my so-called beloved,Why don't you destroy me in the morning?While I fight back,You just laugh, and I lose,Again.You'll never know the truth,You'll never know what it's like,To be bruised and broken,Inside and out,While two men
Fairground of EmotionEverything is so up and downBack and forthRound and roundRoller coasterMerry-go-roundLeaves you dizzyHit the groundSo sit back and enjoy the rideStrap yourself inDo not fightReady yourself forThe beast insideOnce unleashed there'sNo where to hide
The EmptinessThe EmptinessIt's too cold in hereSadness taints the airAll too painfully clearIn my world of despairThe space is too vastA dark and empty voidMy resolve fading fastA misery I can't avoidIt echoes off the wallRebounding in my mindWhy did I have to fall?To only be left behindIn the night it hidesThe shadows closing inWhere a misery residesHurting under my skinMy world lies in dustAbandoned and decayingI am trying to adjustThe misery is stayingStaining the surfacesIn a cruel oppressionThose haunting facesFuelling my depressionStanding in that crowdOne figure stands apartHer voice echoes alou
SaturationSaturationIt's stalking me everywhereDrowning my mind in sadnessLingering dimly in the airAs I fade into the darknessSolitude is taking its tollWave after wave of sorrowEroding away a crushed soulNo hope left for tomorrowIt used to be all containedNow it starts breaking freeUnable to keep it restrainedAnd tearing right out of meDeep and devastating scarsLacerating my lonely beingDeserted beneath the starsIt's my face you hate seeingIt's taking over everythingBurying me with depressionThoughts bear a bitter stingMy sad concealed confessionTears loosely held at bayRefusing to break and crySo much th
ScarredScarredThe damage has been doneWounds have cut too deepAs my downfall has begunLost in solitude I sleepThe nights hurt too muchHear the words in my headDestroying all they touchIt's the visions I dreadDevastating illustrationsTear into my open heartVicious cold lacerationsRipping my world apartIllusions inside my mindThe words taking a shapeWish to leave them behindThere's no hope or escapeWhy must I feel for you?Emotion so vividly strongThere's nothing I can doWhat I've felt for so longJust can't risk revealingJust what you mean to meEverything that I'm feelingCan never be allowed freeEmotion
Moment of TruthLate night, slow country song,Candle light, dresses we wore once to promHolding each other tight, forever doesn't seem so longI've dreamt of a moment like this all my lifeWith not just any girl, but a girl I hope to call my wifeAnd I don't mean to speak too soonBut it's hard not to when I see your beauty in the light of a candle moonSo softly now, as I whisper in your ear, "I do"Forgive me briefly, for this is my moment of truthIt was once, not so long ago when I used to dance like thisIn the arms of the monster and we'd share a delicate kissI thought that was living until I felt your touchAnd I realized I'd been using